About

Hi, I’m Noelle, welcome.
I am so glad you’re here!

Nearly a decade ago I went through a difficult divorce
after a 17 year marriage.

From that union I have the privilege of being the mother
to three amazing children.

Fast forward a couple years, after lots of counseling.

I decided to start dating.

To my surprise and delight I fell in love.

After a lengthy courtship, we were married and sealed for time and all eternity in the Columbia River Temple.

My husband is a widower with three children of his own and together with my three, we became a family of eight!

Our time together has been filled with tons of travel,

lots of adventures,

many beautiful memories,

and heartache that we never could have even imagined.

In 2020 we unexpectedly lost our 18 year old son,
while he was a student at BYU.

Breathe in, Breathe out.
That’s all I can do.
I know I am alive but I feel empty, absent inside.
Breathe in, Breathe out.
I can feel the rain on my face, my hands wipe the drops.
Breathe in, Breathe out.
Can a soul die? A body dies, but can a soul die from grief?
Breathe in, Breathe out.
I am alive, I know this rom the gulping sobs coming from my mouth.
The ache I cannot put into words consumes me.
Breathe in, Breathe out.
Minutes have suddenly become excruciatingly long-
seconds too-all I can do is-
Breathe in, Breathe out.
My mind cannot grasp the fact that I am alive and my son is not.
I cannot speak, I cannot cry, I cannot breathe.
Yet I am alive. NM

Benjamin Edward McBride 2001-2020